dear blog.

dear blog, today i am hurting so badly.

and i don't know how to put it in words exactly to convey the feelings. but little did i know,
part of me died today.

im so tired dealing with this endless bullshit that always find their way to me

i can pretend that everything is alright
but the truth is im screaming with the insane pain inside

(& ohh final c r i t with e x ternal p a nel  s u c k s)

if you're in the mood for some good and relaxed lullaby, here

go sit by the windows, better with while watching rains or ray of sun between the curtains .

smile dearself,

anyone got super power ah?

i'm in  a deep stress right now.

i guess this sem is just not for me

i don't know.

i lost the spirit to do everything when i only had 3 weeks left before final.

i feel so guilty towards my parents for behaving so badly like this.
i feel so bad towards myself for being a loser to gave up in the middle of my dreams
i feel so useless.

aaaaaaaa i need super power to boost my spirit