rules for life.

almost 3a.m. but here i am still couldnt fix my doze-off-to-bed schedule 

and wide awake almost every night.

here. 

tortured.

life's treating me like a bullshit for past few weeks. 

mental and physically being tortured . 

i almost gave up.

final exam.

otak lepu kuasa berganda.

tidur sekejap itupun lepas subuh pastu pagi rushing gi exam .


ok lah sementara free, aku nak kemas barang nak cuti sem.

cepatlahhhhh cutiii

trust issue.

"And honestly i dont trust you i mean i do trust you

but i know there must be limit to trust people dydy and 

am sorry for being this straightforward i cant lie to you

cause your my first friend that never walked away from me until now"

I lost my words as i stare at the text deeper.

Narrow-minded people bored me to the core.

Don't talk to me if you had that disease inside you.

Serious talk.

Serious shit.

hating reality.

Now open your eyes see the truth what lies infront of you

Reality.

Sucks
Wrecked
Damaged 

Is not enough to speak up your mind 
To tell the universe how broken you are 
how you hate every inch reality caressed yourself

To the point you hate everything . EVERYTHING

You may numb the pain 
but still you can't lie to yourself
the feelings inside still drives you insane

revolves.

dunia berputar--

sama juga macam life kita semua.

kau buat orang , satu hari nanti orang buat kau .

that one person we wished for.

aku selalu rasa nak ada someone yang boleh aku nak rants anything 

yang aku tahu selalu ada 

nak kata kawan boleh memang lah

cuma kadang kadang diorang pun ada masalah sendiri hmm

dulu ye waktu aku ngan Ad aku selalu ada benda nak rants , dia dengar patiently then respon and bila dia pun rants , aku dengar respon. bila klaka memang gelak cam gila bila part cam touching memasing assures memasing ahahhahahahaha cerita lama lah kan

aku faham bila ada certain orang kata dia nak ada someone , not really into a relationship tapi hmm someone yang boleh tahan lah kan special  cuma tak act langsung cam lovers tapi more to bestfriend , deep down i really adore that kind of thing

ahahaha rileks.

adalah nanti tu.

till then, kita buat hal kita dulu oki

survivor final projek.

hari ni aku rasa pertama kali dalam sem dua
sesusah mana sebelum ni--
paling nak bunuh diri sebelum ni--
hati rasa paling payah--

aku mintak tuhan kuatkan aku
jadi survivor pada esok hari demi final projek
sebab aku terlampau rasa jahanam--


tolong, tuhan?

sounds so dramatic nadia.

cmon!