yes im alive.

just a random update to prove yguys i'm still alive
despite having a serious battlewar me and my life currently.
yes architecture somehow fucked me up

so , lemme bless my entry with my bangtan's gold eargasm words that i always long for it
whenever my spirit falls on the ground and i need to
pull myself back and fight to struggle for another day lel

had enough.

Have you ever felt like you have try your very best, but still you couldn't make it ?

you tasted the pain.
you let suffer hugged you tightly.
dissapoint kissed you many times.

but you endured.
you still going through all those things.

till

there's a little voice inside you whispered,
"you've had enough"

point of view.

And if people knew one's struggleness to live , will they change their point of view? Or they still keep it the same?

them whom full of themselves

wrote this under unstable state of mind.

The anger that eaten my mind and soul

because of these shitty creatures 

what's my fault for you to be so hard

towards my life?

I wish you guys would just become invinsible 

from my sight

just the smoke of ciggarates

useless and suffers others

What's inside your heart?

I've never been there sorry but no

that's such a disgusting place for my feet to step on

smelly, dark and ugly.

How can you lives your life?

leaving your shits around and still

can walk proudly?

Pathetic.

Good grades ? what? Being rich what?

You're poor inside your soul, poor soul

You was born for nothing except thirst for fame and pleasure

Open your eyes widely

There's so much more coming in this life
You wears gold and walk highly
stepping others down with pride selfishly

Maybe you won't realise that your gold
is a cover of parasit inside that can ended
your life just like you did to others
anytime while you being proud.

dear no one.

As much as i hate the idea of being loved or in loved,

i just can't resist the lyrics that makes so much sense.

What's the point of giving your heart and love,

for someone you barely know he/she will stood forever with you?

espektasi.

ekspektasi bagus.

cuma, bila berlebihan.

dia boleh membunuh jiwa dan jasad.

i wish.

i wish i could dissappear, 

whenever i feels like to.

running away from reality,

to live in my own fantasy for a while.

everything seems so hard nowadays.

i barely couldnt make it through.