a good heart shines.

This morning macam biasa after sarapan dengan ibu kitorang stay for some talks.

Could be anything slipped in our mind. Sometimes aku looking forward borak borak 

dengan ibu sebab rasa healing sangat moment tu.  Boleh jadi masa lepas makan, 

masa tengah masak, sambil tengok tv and paling best, masa lepak kat backyard

tengok langit aaaa best.hihi

And since aku pun dah dewasa (lol 25 kan) haha mostly topic lately ni memang terarah

pasal benda benda yang dewasa.

like, marriage. 

Handling emotions.

Jadi matang

Jobs and lifestyle.

Told ya, could be anything. haha best.

We are talking about finding a good spouse. aku rasa banyak kali juga aku always

tanya ibu. How to find a good one? After a few times aku takde luck, and ended up quite broken

rasa sangatlah trauma. But i have to actually. I mean, my parents themselves told us yang diorang

akan rasa lega once we settled down (read: get married). Rasa dah lepas semuanya haha. 

Tapi aku selalulah counter back "takde jodoh kahwin maknanya jodoh jaga ibu ayah! "

to which they only laugh it loud. Tak setuju sebenarnya haha.

the only answer i always got from ibu is "jangan tengok rupa, pandanglah attitude, behaviours & manners dia"

-- 100 felt that.

nowadays ramai sangat perempuan lawa and I can agree that.

Sampai satu tahap, aku rasa insecure.

tak rasa ada lelaki boleh terima my weaknesses. lol tahpape.

But, duluuuulah. Not anymoreeee. haha

Bila fikir balik , kenapa kena downgrade kan diri sendiri? Kalau rasa less pretty or our physique lacking, takpelah, 

kita work on our akhlaq, personality & attitude. Kan?

Jadi yang orang rasa vibes dia cantiklah haha. Okay lah kan.

Because to be very honest, umur macamni, aku sangatlah suka observe vibes orang.

Imagine someone fall for your kindness & compassion.

Isn't that something very cool and pure? I mean the feeling is real.

berbanding dengan orang yang cakap dia suka kau at first sebab rupa,

they failed to see parts of you yang lagi bernilai dari rupa tu..

imagine you got a fucking gold heart but people decided to jump to the other part?

bapak ah tak best. but maybe my own 2 cents kan.

aku selalu frust kalau ada kawan kawan aku yang downgrade kan diri dia

atas sebab tak ada sesiapa nak dekat dia.

padahal, nothing lacking. cuma insecure bab appearance,

baik, solat 5 waktu , ada manners & sayang parents. cool dah tu.

but decides to ignore all the good values to live up to nowadays people's standard.

aku seriously frustrated. but i can't do anything about it.

it's their feelings. diorang berhak rasa macamtu.

sebab dalam community pun dah brainwash kita

pretty & good looking privillege exists.

fret not, ada lagi orang utamakan good values other than just a face.

let your values shines, kalau rasa insecure with looks oki. chin up!

a good & kind heart is the real definition of beautiful.

And a beautiful soul attractive af.